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I kicked her ass and it felt great


The other day, I saw the mistress. She stumbled upon where I was, and suddenly started making comments designed to hurt me. She mocked me, laughed at me, smirked at me. I couldn’t control the anger that welled up inside of me, and before I knew it, I had grabbed her by the hair, twisted the handful so hard that it drew her head closer to my hand, and had her locked in a bent-over position. I kneed her in the stomach as hard as possible and watched her gasp for breath. She fell to the ground and I pounded and pounded on her as hard as I could until there was nothing left, and she disappeared. Moments later, she reappeared and it happened all over again. Different places, same scenario repeated over and over and over again until I woke up from the dream and so desperately wished that it had been real. I would love to have her neck in my hands. I would choke the breath out of her with my bare hands, and enjoy watching her struggle. I would watch the colour leave her face, and the life slip from my grip. Before her heart had the chance to beat one last time, I would look her in the eyes and say “He loves me”. She would be wise not to ever find herself anywhere close to me. I will literally claw her eyes out for what she has brought upon my family.

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  1. For me, it’s stabbing her in her heart with a big sharp knife, pulling it out and watch her die…. That thought is still in my mind when I think about her… It’s getting less and less but still there. Recently I have the urge to leave a message on her blog and ask her if she has any regrets or remorse… something.. I have a need to confront her, at least in email/blog form.

    • She has a blog? How do you know? Send me the URL and I will pose that very question for you. Might leave some
      other educated comments as well 🙂

      • Lady, don’t temp me! =) Plus I don’t want her to think that it’s my husband who’s suddenly checking on her blog. She will DEFINITELY think that she has another chance at any kind of relationship even with a married man…

        I found out about her blog way way back in the day when I had to check my hubby’s phone internet history just to figure out if he’s still communicating with her… AND, she had 2 of them! One blog had to be made private because back in June, I told him I knew about her blog and I told him to tell her to stop blogging to my husband. After all, we’re back together! Made sense right?? But, Lo and Behold, she created another blog right after the first one was made private. Stupid bitch.
        Though her 2nd blog does still exist, she has stopped blogging in November, a few weeks after No Contact, after he stopped visiting her blog. So that definitely shows that her blog was solely made for communicating to my husband, even though he had mentioned earlier that, “Oh, it’s for her to let everything out, for her to heal..bla bla bla” Bullcrap. If it was for all those thing, she would have either blogged about healing, regret or remorse but it was all about her feelings for him, all about letting my husband know everything she is thinking and feeling…

        Then again, one day I might just post her URL on my site… hah

  2. Love this post!!! Don’t we all wish we could do this!

  3. One of my loved ones actually got a chance to do this very thing. The OW got in my sister’s face, yelling and cursing and carrying on. She managed to stay calm until the stupid ho-bag made the mistake of shoving her. Sis knocked her the f— out. She was horribly ashamed of herself for losing her temper like that once she’d cooled off a little, but childish or not, there was tremendous satisfaction in punching that psychotic cow directly in the face. And an added bonus is the ignorant home-wrecking skank, who went down like a bag of dirt, btw, hasn’t made the same mistake twice.

  4. I wasn’t one bit ashamed, or embarressed when I confronted his Weasel Whore. Yes that’s what I call her, to her face and every chance I get. I stomp cuss, spit…I even had opportunity to get decent handful of her hair. Felt like a huge burden lifted.

    I’m not finished either

  5. I don’t even know what the ow looks like and will probably never see her since she is German a lives in Germany. It should make me feel better but my husband is so “in love” with her b/c she was his first, that he will do what ever it takes to move her here.

  6. Mine is pouring dark dye on her false blond hair and wiping all her make up off then making her walk thru their (old) joint office!!

  7. Moonlight says:

    I asked my husband, as an exercise, to trash this OW to me in a mail ( we are reconciling). Men tend to rubbish their marriages and their spouses to justify their affairs to themselves and the OW…I wanted him to negate some of that, before he started believing all the fiction he had been feeding her, inorder to get into her pants!
    Well, it wasn’t a very long email. Am thinking of asking him to elaborate / add more stuff every 4-6 weeks. Why not?! He says he’d do anything to stay in the marriage..

    • I think whatever works for you is great. I just wonder to what degree you will find it helpful if:

      1. It is fake (contrived i mean)
      2. It is your idea

      I know how much it hurts to be bad talked by your spouse. The pain is intense. We want to feel validated again. We want to feel loved. Hearing him trash her makes us feel like we finally have the one-up. But do we when it isn’t genuinely coming from his internal desire to do it? If you husband is working to save the marriage, you already have the one-up. If what you are seeking now is proof that he loves you, you may need to seek it out in ways that have more meaning. Perhaps a heart to heart talk about why you feel you are asking him to do this, and what it means to you I.e “when you lied and cheated and deceived me, I felt worthless. When you told her the lies that you did to get in good favour with her, you did so at my expense and reputation. You bad mouthed me to her, allowing her to think bad things of me and to feel superior. I need to feel loved and I need to feel superior to her because I feel like I am competing. But asking you to bad mouth her to me is a fantasy. It’s asking you to do something set-up so that I can fantasize that it is authentic. I would prefer that your I feel this love and appreciation in a way that I didn’t have to set up to make it happen. Can you help me with that?”

  8. Oh how we all can relate …In truth no matter WHAT I might think up …I have found so much in Bible that assures us that those who do not confess, renounce and repent going forward to live a life changed by way of submission to the Lord Jesus Christ will suffer MUCH GREATER recompense than anything we might think up.

    Our present ‘justice’ system is corrupt even as the carnal mankind which installed it is corrupt and the balances are not ‘equal’ meaning that they are not ‘weighed’ by the standard of God’s justice.

    HOW we all need a Savior and thus those who deliberately do willful evil are caught in a snare that they may escape but many REFUSE due to the reprobate mind that results from ‘not wanting to retain God in all their knowledge’ as Romans 1 says

    Here are some of the consequences that the Bible says awaits not just whores and strange women but any who do not seek and receive the redemption that cost God his ONLY begotten Son.

    Here is a description of what we are all dealing with here.

    Proverbs 30:20 Such is the way of an adulterous woman; she eateth, and wipeth her mouth, and saith, I have done no wickedness.

    This haughty attitude brings many into the snare set up by the god of this world …but it is not like God did not warn of the effects and consequences of sin ..and give NUMEROUS examples of both those who took heed and those who did not ..
    Here is one that is given as an analogy in Isaiah 3….some FEARFUL consequences to wonton disregard for obedience to the moral laws of GOD …and show the need for repentance and redemption from our carnal lusts….offered to anyone freely who makes a CHOICE to desire to live rightly!

    We are not saved BY our own doing …but salvation DOES come with some instructions of how to live going forward….see partially what awaits those who persist in sin..

    3 For, behold, the Lord, the Lord of hosts, doth take away from Jerusalem and from Judah the stay and the staff, the whole stay of bread, and the whole stay of water.

    2 The mighty man, and the man of war, the judge, and the prophet, and the prudent, and the ancient,

    3 The captain of fifty, and the honourable man, and the counsellor, and the cunning artificer, and the eloquent orator.

    4 And I will give children to be their princes, and babes shall rule over them.

    5 And the people shall be oppressed, every one by another, and every one by his neighbour: the child shall behave himself proudly against the ancient, and the base against the honourable.

    6 When a man shall take hold of his brother of the house of his father, saying, Thou hast clothing, be thou our ruler, and let this ruin be under thy hand:

    7 In that day shall he swear, saying, I will not be an healer; for in my house is neither bread nor clothing: make me not a ruler of the people.

    8 For Jerusalem is ruined, and Judah is fallen: because their tongue and their doings are against the Lord, to provoke the eyes of his glory.

    9 The shew of their countenance doth witness against them; and they declare their sin as Sodom, they hide it not. Woe unto their soul! for they have rewarded evil unto themselves.

    10 Say ye to the righteous, that it shall be well with him: for they shall eat the fruit of their doings.

    11 Woe unto the wicked! it shall be ill with him: for the reward of his hands shall be given him.

    12 As for my people, children are their oppressors, and women rule over them. O my people, they which lead thee cause thee to err, and destroy the way of thy paths.

    13 The Lord standeth up to plead, and standeth to judge the people.

    14 The Lord will enter into judgment with the ancients of his people, and the princes thereof: for ye have eaten up the vineyard; the spoil of the poor is in your houses.

    15 What mean ye that ye beat my people to pieces, and grind the faces of the poor? saith the Lord God of hosts.

    16 Moreover the Lord saith, Because the daughters of Zion are haughty, and walk with stretched forth necks and wanton eyes, walking and mincing as they go, and making a tinkling with their feet:

    17 Therefore the Lord will smite with a scab the crown of the head of the daughters of Zion, and the Lord will discover their secret parts.

    18 In that day the Lord will take away the bravery of their tinkling ornaments about their feet, and their cauls, and their round tires like the moon,

    19 The chains, and the bracelets, and the mufflers,

    20 The bonnets, and the ornaments of the legs, and the headbands, and the tablets, and the earrings,

    21 The rings, and nose jewels,

    22 The changeable suits of apparel, and the mantles, and the wimples, and the crisping pins,

    23 The glasses, and the fine linen, and the hoods, and the vails.

    24 And it shall come to pass, that instead of sweet smell there shall be stink; and instead of a girdle a rent; and instead of well set hair baldness; and instead of a stomacher a girding of sackcloth; and burning instead of beauty.

    25 Thy men shall fall by the sword, and thy mighty in the war.

    26 And her gates shall lament and mourn; and she being desolate shall sit upon the ground.

    This is not JUST for ‘then’ …God is not amused nor is he going to withhold dealing with the unjust forever . He actually gives people what they themselves ‘fill up ‘ during their lifespan …consequences here and now ignored are another way that GOD has designed us to respond to our conscience BEFORE we lose our opportunity while we live to repent and renounce a life of living by flesh.

    When my husband complained that he ‘could not handle’ the pain he had to experience while I shared with him explicitly how his cheating effected me …I remarked ‘ if you think dealing with the pain you have caused IN ME to be too hard for you to handle …I assure you how do you think you will fair in the throne room of the Almighty? He gave us all the opportunity to wake up and make the journey to seek Him and to receive HIS forgiveness and then walk in a lifetime of changed attitudes and choices!

    The ‘cup of wrath’ is what people who sin willfully and reject the Lord are filling themselves by way of their rebellious lives . The ‘cup of blessing’ is a result of many times of governing ourselves by His wisdom and asking for Him to strenghten and counsel us , especially in the face of such destructive assaults upon our hearts!

    HE of all appreciates our angst and anger…but as He advised us ‘ Be ye angry and sin not’ ….it is not SIN to be angry with unjust and sinful behavior …but to sin OUT of it …is no good for anyone.

    I commend you all for your strength in the face of such adatious presumption of the OW …I know I have had to deal with many MANY thoughts that , though maybe ‘satisfying’ at the moment would only bring me down to her level and would fall FAR SHORT of the perfect way my Lord will eventually deal with all of these ..by His wisdom and ability ..How’s that for comfort…PERFECT JUSTICE coming our way!

    So then to forgive is not to ignore or forget the lessons we may learn for the benefit of our own souls. The things past that I have been forgiven for are many and the things against me that I have forgiven continue to challenge me and actually motivate me to ‘eat at the table of the Wisdom of GOD ” which brings not just comfort and wisdom but a rejoicing that I was not left in the darkness and prison of sin but now can be assured that I am not finished my race as of yet but must trust in Him who will perfect all things concerning me.

    I still sting when I get in the shower and have the images of them having sex there which apparently was a common occurrence…something I could not do well . So I have to deal with ‘vain imaginations’ concerning all that they did and kept doing as if married when they continued for 14 years…all the while my husband coming home each and every night …so they had two children….and now we are forever linked to this …

    The worst thing I think is when they come ‘too’ and realize the depth of what they owe in all the lives they have harmed…the two children …innocent of what these did …will be WITNESSES of their sin …they will forever be a reminder of their parents wicked choices and deceitful mechanisms! Even though forgiveness IS available and awaits all who come to receive it ..asking and acknowledging their sin …there still remains the ‘testimony’ of the past.

    Those who are forgiven may begin to realize those past ‘testimonies’ as yet another useful way that we may give GOD glory and thanks because we have been forgiven much and thus appreciate His mercy so much more.

    I would not wish to sin so that I have more to rejoice in however as Paul the Apostle pointed out …our forgiven past and our effort to respond to the Lord going forward with loving thanks is something He is due.

    Back when I was violated by others I recall thinking well …I will pray for them because the Lord said to …and if they get saved and repent …they will become part of the solution instead of enemy’s of righteousness.

    Few there be today yet the longsuffering of the Lord is continuing for a season .May these wicked turn from their sin before they lose the opportunity.

    Isa 55:6 Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near:

    So far I have seen no evidence of the OW changing her ways or attitude…but that may not come about in my lifetime or in my view….I pray she does because there is nothing to look forward to as long as she persists in sowing seeds of sin …and a crop is soon to come up as her children are now approaching high school where even the most dutifully moral children have been challenged greatly

    She thus far has educated them toward neo paganism, socialism and hatred for Christ …and any who love Him….thus after I met her at a party we had at our home and shared Christ and showed her our children’s home school room and materials she went out and directly campaigned to have children by my husband . She saw he was a good provider and had the work ethic and the pride to sustain support of his children and she took that opportunity to claim he had ‘used up ‘ her opportunities to meet a man to give her children!

    She was the promoter and the pursuer throughout their adultery …and when it appeared after six years of her accomodating his sexual lust she decided to take some steps to assure her financial support…in style I might add.

    The money tree is exhausted and I do not see her making too much effort to become independently employed….but is back to school for yet another degree as she turns nearly 50 soon.

    All men she has had since D DAY have caught wind of her con and fled…..seems my husband was duped into thinking HE used and conned her …but that too is a tactic of women who prey on lusty men ..they flatter them with thinking that they [the men] are the ones using them when it is now the women who are the stalkers of men …part of the movement to have all that men have “enjoyed’ …sexual ‘freedom’ is selfish and deadly …and it is at length the women who buy into this lie that suffer the most AND any children they raise to believe this doctrine of demons as well.

    The Devil hates GOD and is making every effort to hurt God as any Father is most hurt by seeing his kids harmed…it is a deceitful ploy that Jesus Christ came to give mankind ‘eye-salve’ to see and escape by way of learning how to live by TRUTH

  9. I pray that someday the Lord will help me to forgive. There have been so many before marriage, and this sad creature who looks like Muscle Woman on the Regular Show cartoon was an emotional and physical partner off and on for two years.
    He was a sex addict for years. She didn’t know. She just thought he was fine, sweet, thoughtful, and had a good paying job. She was also a Parttime Christian. She never told him. He never spent a dime nor took her anywhere. She was waiting on the big payoff. Gave him a handjob in his new truck which I gave him the down payment for!!
    If it were not for me loving the Lord, and promising my 23 year old son that I would clnfrknt her peacefu.ly, I would have beat her like a drum! My husband knew he had to face his addiction. I told her all about his years of addiction which were revealed through a lie detector on our anniversary.
    Imagine the pain on her face and tears in her eyes when he told her be only wanted sex. He never even saw her naked, he said he did not even want to. The idea of doing so makes him sick.
    All I know is everyone in the family knows. His parents thought he was such a Golden Boy, and did not want him to marry me! Now they are so ashamed they can hardly look at him. He had a breakdown after a suicide attempt.
    I stood by him. She apologized during the confrontation, but I’m so sorry..doesn’t heal my heart.
    I started to tell her boyfriend(I did not). He might have killed her or him. She figured my husband was the better catch then the other off again lover. Wrong!

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